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"Linguam compescere virtus non est minima." To hold one's tongue is a great virtue. How true. How unfortunate, however, that so few people practice such virtues. I try to avoid physical confrontation, luckily, because if I fought over everything I felt like fighting over, I'd have a reputation at school quite the contrary to my current. If only I had a little less self-control, I'd be kicking people in the face from sunrise to sunset and have a smile on my face while doing it. Sweet chin music for a full audience. Oh well. Brooding is overrated, so I'm letting it go. Check ya later.
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[17 Aug 2005|08:01pm] |
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School's been decent lately. Hoping all of that keeps up. Journalism seems like it'll be a pretty cool class. Everything else, ehh, nothing special yet. I very possibly might not have any classes I can have a lot of fun in. I definitely look forward to lunch. Well, anyway...I need to write down some of my ideas for the column I want to hopefully do for the paper...also...need to start working on my story idea. Well, I'm heading off. Just thought I'd update. Check yall later.
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| Need to go to sleep |
[15 Aug 2005|03:53am] |
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Dude...Weird Al can ruin just about every good song ever made. Good for him. =P Anyway, I'm going to sleep at four...I have a lot of junk I need to take care of tomorrow (later today). Like teaching Lia how to wrestle. Haha, that should be interesting. Anyway...check ya later.
Grrr.
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| Busy, busy, busy... |
[06 Aug 2005|12:09am] |
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Yeah, man, I'm getting all anxious and shit. Holly's coming back tomorrow or sometime close to then, so that means that very soon (unless that guy James cops out on her), I'm going to have to figure out what I'm going to do with her visiting me. Not to mention all of the Joe groupies, haha, thanks Lia. But yeah, basically, here's the list of the ladies I'm dealing with that I'd actually consider getting with (Note- all of these girls is going by an alias, because at least one will possibly read this):
Ms. Classy- Foremost choice in my mind. She's incredibly pretty...our personalities match just about to a key, but there are still enough differences to make it interesting. We do have one thing we vary on quite a bit, having to do with morals, but maybe we'll be able to meet in the middle someday.
Ms. Breezy- She's just about up there with Ms. Classy, I just don't know if we have as much in common. She is a fun girl, though, very pretty, and there seems to be a certain chemistry there.
Ms. Spicy- Hmm...well, she's very intelligent. I'm not sure how much we have in common, but we do seem to have a little. Morality-wise, though, complete opposites. She does, however, appeal to my rather lustful mode of thinking, which does come every so often, and comes rather potentally, haha. I don't even know how she really feels about me, though, so, she's not too much to worry about.
Then of course, there's Holly, but I doubt she's someone to consider, noting that I'm *not* a fan of the long distance and doubt I can commit to a long distance relationship. I gotta figure out what's going to become of that, though. Dealing with the girls here will be a lot easier, because they're reasonable, generally, haha. Well, I've spent like the last hour looking up not-so obvious aliases for each girl, so I'm ready to get off of here. I'll check you all later, though.
"My life's complicated. I'm Joe Bear, that's just how I roll."
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[11 Jul 2005|01:04pm] |
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I realize that a number larger than half of the people that I have on any and all of my buddy/friend lists, I don't even talk to. I don't even like talking to. And that kind of makes me a little touchy. Because then it's just pointless to have them on there. And the thing is, they must be perfectly happy not to talk to me, because they never say anything to me, either. So it's like they don't even care if I were to talk to them or not. So hey. If you're reading this, and you know me, and we haven't talked in a while...there's one of two reasons that this is so...
a) I don't like you.
or
b) I don't think you like me.
Check ya later.
-Grr.
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| I'm back (again). |
[03 Jul 2005|12:07pm] |
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Yeah, I came back from camp Thursday night. I just didn't have the urge to make a post until now. So now I made one. Woohoo. I have nothing else to say except I'm bored out of my mind. Check ya later. Grrr.
P.S.- Hannibal Lector isn't a bad guy. In a lot of ways he's a kind of super hero. A sick, twisted super hero. =P
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| One day |
[25 Jun 2005|01:49pm] |
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One day, guys, until I'm gone. I'm going to miss this place. Funny thing how we never miss where we live when we're heading to Florida or California or something, we always have a good time and wish we could stay longer. Then you have to head someplace like work or...Wolverine Wrestling Camp, haha, and you seem to immediately have a deeper appreciation for home. Anyway...I just wanted to get that out there. Hope you all miss me. =P I'm going to come back all cranky and sore and tired, so I might not be that great to talk to that first night, haha. Hopefully something fun happens today to help see me off. Check yall later. Grr.
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| Grr. |
[23 Jun 2005|04:22pm] |
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Yeah, this is just some other stuff I wanted to talk about. This thing's surprisingly good for venting. But yeah. Wrestling camp's in three days. No one seems to understand how difficult this is going to be for me. I mean, I'm going to leave at 6:30 am Sunday, and I'm not coming back until 9 pm Thursday. And it's going to be hell. Basically for three days of it it's going to be practice, meal, match, three times a day. Except at night it's two matches. The first day there's a practice session and then that night a scrimmage. And the last day is the individual tournament. That's a lot of shit. Besides that...I don't know, I'm just kind of lonely, I suppose. Not a big surprise, but I mean, for a while I had some people that I really thought I connected with and that I could be with and it would work out nicely, but both times I tried to have a relationship with one of these people, it crashed and burned. I can have this relationship with this girl I really care for, but I'll have to go back to the long distance thing...otherwise, I might have to settle with a lesser, casual relationship here. There's one good possibility, but she's my friend and it's just weird thinking about her as anything else, I guess. Basically, I just want to get out. Especially before I have to leave on Sunday. I talk to people about this sort of thing, but I doubt that many of them really listen. People are so caught up in their own shit, anyway. Well, I'm off of here. Check yall later.
Grr.
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| He's baaaaaaaack. |
[23 Jun 2005|02:12pm] |
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Yes. After months of abandoning this place for Myspace, I have decided to come home to LiveJournal. Thinking about changing my username though. I wonder if people even try to read my LJ anymore, haha. Oh well. Perhaps I can wrangle in some new viewers. Well, hate to start on a pessimistic foot of sorts, but what drove me to come back was the insistent urge to rant. So here I am, and here it goes-
Girls have things infinitely easier than guys. I don't give a fuck about what you have to say about periods or child rearing or any of that feminist bullshit you try to pull everytime a guy says you have it easy, because you do. Sorry that you have the periods and all, that's not your fault, but child rearing is your all's choice (most times). Now, why do you have it easy, you may ask? Because you all can get virtually anything you want about ten times easier than any guy, because you all are the fairer sex and have the fairer tools at your disposal. Very few guys can charm their way to anything, but many, many girls can. I mean, just think about how this works. If a guy tells a girl he knows that he wants to have sex, unless she's legitimately attracted and it wouldn't go against any of her morals or standards, she would be offended. On the other hand, if a girl told a guy, any guy, she wanted to have sex, unless he was gay, or if he was faithful to his relationship, he'd be all over it. Furthermore, you all have so much more means of influence than guys. You can turn decisions in your favor and everything if you put just the slightest bit of effort into it.
Anyway, I basically lost my steam through the first half of that. Hopefully I offended no one, and if so, my rant is over, I don't feel like arguing anymore for a while. =P Grr.
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[10 Jan 2005|10:49pm] |
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Interesting things are happening. I'm talking to people that keep me intrigued and I find myself not so bored with the net anymore, haha. I'm still doing good in wrestling, hoping to kick some ass this Thursday against St. X. He didn't even place in the JV tourney, I got 2nd place with a Silver medal. Let's see how that turns out, haha. Hopefully Rachel still finds a way to be there, I wanted her to watch. Oh well, what can you do. I'm about to head off of here, people, I'll check yall later. Oh yeah, Raw was actually good tonight. Surprising.
Holla
Signing out.
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| One Month, Two Months, Three Months... |
[02 Jan 2005|05:41pm] |
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Three months since I updated. Wow...I thought they would of gotten rid of this thing by now. Surprise, surprise. I'll highlight the most memorable events of the past hat trick for you all (in no particular order):
-Was the Varsity 189 of the Wrestling team for one match, before I got bumped down to JV
-Won 3rd place at the Lonesome Invitational Tournament
-Won 2nd place at the Seneca JV tournament
-Started talking to this girl Rachel, got her number, hoping to go to the movies with her either today or tomorrow
-Got a Gamecube (my list was kind of skimpy, had to add it)
-Maintained a 4.0 GPA
Well, that's about it. *Shrugs* Most of the cool stuff happened in wrestling. I'll be updating from now on at least a few times a week, when I get the urge or the time. This time around, I'll only speak when it's most important for me to post. Check ya later.
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[25 Oct 2004|07:39pm] |
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Hey, what's up everybody? Been a while. I went to the movies this past Friday to see the Grudge, with Emily and a couple of others. Another pretty girl named Julia was one of them, she was pretty cool. Emily screamed a lot and held my hand a lot, and there was a point where I guess you could say we cuddled, it was all cool. Afterward we went to Steak n' Shake. It was good times. She hugged me before she had to go, which is a step up from...nothing, haha. Wrestling's been going pretty well. I can't weight until I'm back down to 189, then the Bear will attack, as Mitch put it. Umm...been goofing off in school, with my friends, but I'm on top of my grades. Everything's pretty good, aside from a few drawbacks. Just a few...which, the more I think on them...the less they impact me. I just gotta stay semi-aggressive with my courting of Emily...there are others, I fear, that are doing the same. And nobody beats me out, especially when it's a lady, haha. Check yall later.
Holla.
Signing out.
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| Been a while |
[19 Oct 2004|12:13am] |
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Just thought I'd update...haven't done so in such a long time. Just wanted to tell you people some new things. So far I have a 4.0 in school. Yay. Umm, we're learning how to juggle, and I suck, lol. Oh well, hopefully I'll get better. I'm back in wrestling, and we're going to have our second practice tomorrow. Now's the time when we start to get serious. I'm really excited about being Varsity 189...I hope I can make it to State, that would be a really big accomplishment for me. This weekend I might be going out to the movies with this girl I like, Emily. Gotta ask her. It was supposed to be a group thing, but Leighanna and her friend bailed, so now it looks like it'll be mano y mano. Still hoping to reach certain people *Cough cough* You know who you are, lol. Hmm...things are pretty good. Sorry for dropping out for like a week, I've just been busy. Trying to keep up that 4.0, lol. Lots of love, to take a quote from Stephanie.
Holla.
Signing Out.
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| She chose a fitting screen name. |
[09 Oct 2004|01:54am] |
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IsoxlowxsoxcoldI...that's her screenname. Her being Cymbaline...my ex-girlfriend...God, why is it whenever I get depressed, my mind always rotates thoughts of her. Yeah, it's been a bad day. A low day, if you will. And thinking about her has just made it worse. Being reminded of her made it worse. Now I'm just hurting inside because I'm thinking about her way too much. I read her profiel...it's been 6 months, and she's still with the guy she left me for. So she's officially been with him longer than me...well, guess she passed that mark about a month ago. Oh well. I just know that I'm on here...it's late...I'm aching inside, and I'm lonely and there's no one to talk to me, and I just want someone to take these thoughts and feelings of her away from me...there's a girl that does that for me...or she did...things have been difficult lately. Just being around her and talking to her...just having the feelings for this girl that I do was enough to heal the damage done by Ms. C, at least temporarily...hopefully I can come into contact with this person really soon...I just really want a girlfriend, someone that can be this girl, but more all the same. Not really be the girl, but make me feel as the girl makes me feel. There's someone at school that might hold potential, but we'll just see. I'm just tired, and I'm depressed, so, naturally, I'm babelling. I'll check you all later.
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Wow, I'm not used to this new update format they have on here...it's so confusing...I'm about to sign off here, so I can write some more of my song...haven't been able to work on it all week, been so busy...soon I'll be ready to share it in its entirety to people...hopefully they'll like it, and consider it better than the first song. That's what I'm aiming for. Something to top that one. Anyway...I'll check yall later, I don't think I have much else to say. Going into wrestling again tomorrow...may God have mercy, hehe...is it just me or have people just become insensitive to most things now? Kind of makes me not want to share things with people anymore. Or perhaps I should just share with people that I know will actually care about what I have to say...who knows...anyway...I'm about to call it a night. Check yall later.
"Life is at best bittersweet. Take care of yourself."
Holla.
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| Back in the room. |
[24 Sep 2004|06:06pm] |
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Yes...the decision was made...today was my first day back in the wrestling room. God...my everything hurts. Everything. Arms, legs, crotch...everything. Coach shook my hand and kept telling me "It'll come back. Don't worry, give it some time, and it will come back." That made me feel good. God, my friend Jon Chiu's only a 103 and it felt like he was as strong as me...I guess his endurance is just so muc more honed since I've been out of the game. He's definitely gotten stronger though...tough little Asian man. Talking to him right now. There's people I've been wanting to talk to, get a hold of...all that good stuff. In due time, hopefully. I'm signing off here, but expect a later post when I'm not so tired. Holla.
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| Just wanted to post this. |
[20 Sep 2004|12:42am] |
Deja-vu
Written By Joseph Burrell
Do you think it's a sin,
To be lying over love?
That I will not get in,
To sweet Heaven above?
I'd spend Eternity,
Living under your spell,
If you weren't with me,
I'd be in a living Hell,
People may come, people may go,
You never know who you will meet,
But I'm glad I met you, because you know,
That you make my life complete,
In a past life, I must've been in love with you...
Because we're together now, and I'm feeling deja-vu....
Deja-vu...
Our love will surely last,
Of this I can be sure,
We must forget the past,
And look forward to the future,
I'll erase your pain,
Replace it with love and joy,
I will break the chain,
Of you being treated like a toy,
Lovers will come, lovers will go,
They may take or break your heart,
That girl you knew, from long ago,
May end up being your life's missing part,
In a past life, I must've been in love with you...
Because we're together now, and I'm feeling deja-vu...
Deja-vu...
Baby, I'm your man, please understand,
Our love is in God's greater plan,
The simplicity, of you and me,
Our love is as vast as the the eye can see,
Everyday, I gotta say,
I love you in each and everyway,
You're lovely as a dove, the only girl I love,
You are my angel sent from above,
If I were made to choose,
Between Eternity and your love,
Eternity I would lose,
I'd rather have what I dream of,
You're what I need in life,
To rid it of all the wrong,
In this world full of strife,
You are the one that keeps me strong,
You were always my friend,
Even when to our love, I wasn't true,
Now you're mine 'till the end,
I'll never leave, I promise you,
Fortune may come, fortune may go,
That'll always be within life's trend,
But when you're sad, feeling low,
I'll always be there to defend,
In a past life, I must've been in love with you...
Because we're together now, and I'm feeling deja-vu...
I'm always here, I'll never go,
The love we share warms me to the core,
It comes to us, in constant flow,
Our hearts are on wings, forever they soar,
In a past life, I must've been in love with you...
Because we're together now, and I'm feeling deja-vu...
What does it matter now, if our love is old or new?
All I care about is your love for me and mine for you...
Deja-vu.
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| Lots on my mind. Topics for my new song: Plentiful. |
[19 Sep 2004|11:24pm] |
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Ever have that one very, very special person in your life? That you know that if you're with them...that you can just drop everything else, because being with them is just enough? That person that just invokes those ultimate feelings of love? For the longest time, I think I've known who that person is...if only I could tell them. Well, I'm going to write a song about all this. A good song. The best song. Better than Deja-vu, or any of that. This will be the king. I'm kinda hyped about tomorrow, don't know why, I think I've just had a boost of endorphines or something, because I'm stoked. I'm gonna go to bed soon. Check yall later, I'm signing out.
"Life is at best bittersweet. Take of yourself."
Holla.
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[19 Sep 2004|06:25am] |
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6:25 right now....going to talk to the Coach tomorrow...hopefully...can't be that hard, I mean, I just gotta say what I feel...what's the harm in that..so tired...oh well...going to brush my teeth now, go back to sleep...I had a dream Sheryl Crow was dead...I know. Random. Holla.
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| Whew. |
[16 Sep 2004|11:07pm] |
I'm pretty tired...not only have I slept most of today off, I just got done weightlifting...God, I'm going to be sore tomorrow...also did some crunches, but they didn't have me burning nearly as much...which I don't know, I guess you take what you get. It'll all amount to plenty in the long run. Thinking about postponing the girlfriend search...especially if I do wind up back in wrestling...I don't know, I talked to my brother Tommy about it, and he said that ultimately, it is my decision...hmm...I don't know...anyway, I hope to talk to some of the people I've been trying to get into contact with...or something...I don't know, I'm too tired to think, lol, so I'm cutting this short. Have a good night, and enjoy tomorrow, it's Friday. Check yall later.
"Life is at best bittersweet. Take care of yourself."
Holla.
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